The Diary of Col. Moscardó
[These papers were discovered by the Tte. Gral. Fernando
Frank Esquivias among the papers
of his late wife Marichu
Moscardó, daughter of the hero
of the Palace]
Palace
of Toledo, 25 of 1936 July
Maria of my soul, children of my
soul: I write goodbye to all of
you in case this situation does
not have favorable solution. You
will already hear the bombing of
the Palace, with pieces of
artillery of all the calibers,
air strikes and, in addition,
the armored cars and tanks that
have come from Madrid; then in
spite of all that, they cannot
nor will they be able take the
Palace violently; it will
require much bravery to assault
it with the class of people
inside. There are enormous
destructions, but they have not
breached more than at the front
door, that later has been
secured perfectly. They will try
to make us surrender by
withdrawing food and
demoralization and will not
succeed because we will remove
food from underneath the stones
and the morale is very well even
among the women, because they
know if they will surrender they
will face death nonetheless. I
do not mean to cause bitterness
to you by saying that our Luis
is held in custody by their
people. You will already know
that the head of their army had
called me by telephone today and
said to me that if in the space
of ten minutes we did not
surrender, they will shoot Luis,
and in case I doubted it, made
him come to the telephone and
spoke with me to convince to me
that he was Luis. Forgive me
that I have to tell you, my son
of my soul, and he spoke to me
with calm voice, and I did not
do more than to say to him that
he entrust his soul to God and
cry out in a loud voice, "Viva
España!.¨ I hope that they are
not so cruel that they want to
take revenge in the person of my
son, completely innocent in this
cause, and does not pose any
threat but of this indicidual I
cannot put my trust. ... I give
thanks that God gives me the
fortitude to bear this tragedy
... This seems like a dream,
rather a nightmare, thinking
that only in the last 8 or 10
days we were a happy family, and
today we do not know everybody
is, and we even if they are
alive. I have confidence in God
and in His hands I have
entrusted the solution, that
gives lifeto you all and that
you find a way decent to live if
the communist revolution
prevails, and nothing I say of
myself, because it is not
possible that I will be spared.
I cannot think that I am not
going to see you anymore ... I
ask your pardon and forgiveness,
Maria, for my lack of
understanding sometimes, because
recognizing that you are the
best and most virtuous woman, I
have not come to acknowledge and
consider its true value and
everything that bonds ...
Nevertheless, you pardoned me,
although I solemnly say that
never I stipped loving you ....
Of our children, what is there
that I can say to you and they,
if all you make it through this
tragic situation, try to adapt
to the circumstances but without
never stopping being religious
and honest, even though you will
have to be in seclusion. I have
the security that the boys will
know to break through, because
they are intelligent and honest
... I am proud of them. Pepe and
Miguel! What pain! Of my Luis,
son of my soul, after his
triumph in the opposition, my
son is a true saint. And my
Marichu, daughter of my heart!
What so bitter times is going to
have to live. She, my joy and my
pride, so good and virtuous as
you, so beautiful ... believing
that our children and you are so
good and exemplary and form a so
complete family that God has
arranged that we meet in another
higher place to enjoy our
happiness where nothing can
separate us ever again. I have
absolute faith in it. Spain
cannot fall under the command of
the Marxism; we are Catholics of
tradition and that can never be
taken away. God wants and
desires that we all enjoy La
Paz. I do not know nor how to
write, I have the a little dull
senses and in the middle of as
much anguish and preoccupation
by you, and of fear before the
future, I am or physically,
better of which it could appear
to me; this regime of average
food doess me very well. Good
bye Maria, good bye Pepe,
Miguel, Luis, Marichu, Care it
to me, I give a kiss you with
all my soul, my life and my
heart and always and at any
moment I think about you, that
you are my love and my illusion.
Good bye. Your Pepe. I have made
a spiritual communion and I have
prepared myself well although
there is no priest here.
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